Dear diary,

today Arnold told me, he is poor. That makes me feel really bad. I mean, I always complain about my little problems but his problems are existential. Sometimes he says, he has to walk 22 miles from school to the Rez or from home to school. That is simply terrible. I wish I could help him. Maybe we could have done something if he had told me earlier. But he seems to be very proud and doesn’t want to be pitied for his poverty. I think that is very strong. And because of his pride I think it is better if I don’t talk about it with him anymore. I mean, what can I do to change it? Right. Nothing. It doesn’t really seem to bother him, so why should I make a fuss? I should just leave him. But maybe I shouldn’t be so mean to him anymore. I mean he already is kind of my boyfriend but I always keep him at distance for some reason. Maybe it is because of my dad. He frightened Arnold away and now I am scared what will happen if my dad sees him again and how he will react if he finds out that Arnold is poor. Should I break up with him? But that is not fair either. I don’t know what to do.

Well, see you soon,

Penelope