Dear diary,

normally I don´t write my feelings into a diary but now I don´t know with which person I could speak. A family´s good friend namend Eugene was killed by bobby. Bobby was Eugene´s friend. I can´t understand how you can shoot your friend!? I know, they both were drunk but this isn´t an excuse! I´m so sad about this incident and I don´t know how I should deal with the death of Eugene…At the moment I drown the pain in alcohol. Deep down inside me I know that it isn´t a way. Junior´s grandmother was killed by a drunk driver and Eugene is gone because he and his friend were drunk. Oh, wait. What is if someday i kill somebody because of my drunkenness?! I couldn´t forgive myself! And… Oh my God! If I go on like this maybe one day I will end like Eugene, so I will be killed. Then my familiy would be alone. Possibly I could die tommorow… What have I achieved in my life until now ?! Nothing. All what I did in my life was drinking! I think I have to stop drinking to protect my family and myself. I hope I will succeed. I will tell you more in a few days or weeks.